Greatest Fear

In light of my most recent post from months ago as well as present, past, and more than likely future events, I write this next post. I was inspired today, from a great sadness inside me, to reconnect with the blogging world - not that my postings at this time get much attention; then, it does not matter much to me but that my voice may have some existence in forum.


So I begin:
There's something of a naive state in all of us, an incessant, everlasting childlike uncertainty that strengthens in discomfort and, in comfort, weakens to a point just bearable to keep on keeping on. There is an innocence in us that yearns to be nurtured, understood and coddled - not just for a moment, but for a lifetime. There is a passion in us to be desired, that every inch and crevice of our bodies, every wimper of our trying hearts might be someone's absolute cynosure. And in all this mess of desiring, yearning and uncertainty we exist.

We exist in a chaotic cycle of misdirected control, misguided anger, and unnecessary hatred.

What needs to be emphasized is not our fear of rejection, while it is a factor of our fears it is only a component of a larger fear.

Whether or not we realize it I am afraid of you just as he is afraid of him all the while him is not afraid of he but him is afraid of me. And even still you are afraid of he and even he is afraid of me.

Why. And it is here that, while I agree to an extent to what Marianne Williamson has said (a quotation which I posted in the previous post) I will have to differ on the topic of her major premise.

That we are powerful beyond all measure is, rather, a concept in need of realization in the living process. Thus our biggest fear IS that we are inadequate. Again I'll say, what we NEED to realize is that we "are POWERFUL beyond all measure." I, you, he and him feared themselves inadequate while each of them shivered in the supposed superiority of another's shadow. If he might genuinely lend himself to absolute security, an absolute comfort with himself, an ultimate peacefulness with self-satisfaction, a passionate SELF-LOVE, then I, you, and he will unconsciously shed themselves of their own insecurity and allow others to do the same.